CRYING FOR THE MOON

"This very real feeling of inferiority is magnified by his
childish sensitivity and it is this state of affairs which
generates in him that insatiable, abnormal craving for selfapproval
and success in the eyes of the world. Still a child, he cries
for the moon. And the moon, it seems, won't have him!"

LANGUAGE OF THE HEART, p. 102

While drinking I seemed to vacillate between feeling totally

invisible and believing I was the center of the universe.

Searching for that elusive balance between the two has

become a major part of my recovery. The moon I constantly

cried for is, in sobriety, rarely full; it shows me instead its

many other phases, and there are lessons in them all. True

learning has often followed an eclipse, a time of darkness,

but with each cycle of my recovery, the light grows stronger

and my vision is clearer.