Big Book - Alcoholics Anonymous - ACCEPTANCE WAS THE ANSWER - p. 410

– The physician wasn’t hooked, he thought–he just prescribed drugs medically indicated for his many ailments. Acceptance was his key to liberation. So I immediately started taking and shooting pep pills. Eventually, I was taking forty-five milligrams of the long-acting Benzedrine and forty-five of the short-acting just to get out of bed in the morning. I took more through the day to increase the high, and more to maintain it; when I overshot the mark, I’d take tranquilizers to level off. The pep pills affected my hearing at times: I couldn’t listen fast enough to hear what I was saying. I ‘d think, I wonder why I’m saying that again–I’ve already said it three times. Still, I couldn’t turn my mouth off.

 ~ Big Book - Alcoholics Anonymous - ACCEPTANCE WAS THE ANSWER - p. 410